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face down. lets try this again. [15 Mar 2007|03:17pm]
[ mood | aggravated ]

hey girl you know you drive me crazy.

yeah thats how i make myself feel every day.

my food has started to take over again.
and thats not about to happen.
i wont let that happen.
im starting a 15 lbs. in 2 weeks kinda thing.
anyone who wants to join. please do.
i need some buddies.

2 weeks. maybe more for some of you.

think thin my beauties.


(6 kisseshug and kiss me)

[10 Jun 2005|07:28pm]
Today was mostly an alright day! I am down to 107 and that’s only 13 lbs away from my STGW. I’m so excited. My parents may not let me date the guy I’m going out with, and if they don’t, then that just gives me more reason to stop eating. If they start to notice that I’m not eating and I’m losing even more weight, again, that they will think twice about getting in the way of me and my boyfriend. I’m so excited, they better let me continue to date him, they don’t have a reason for me not to, but either way I’m not eating, just this way they will know that its mostly their fault. HA! They make me so mad sometimes. Like I can’t even stand it seriously. Wow I can’t wait to hear what they say! It better be in my favor, or I’ll let them know that I’m not going to eat, gosh! I really hate them! Any woo-
Here’s my body measurements for today-Thighs.L-21 in. R-20.5 < weird I know..they are soo fat. I hate them.
Hips-30-30.5<<<decrease..AHH Waist-24 Bust-30! *excited I’m usually a 32* Butt-35...< this butt has really got to decrease!

(6 kisseshug and kiss me)

[21 Apr 2005|04:32pm]

arms.they are coming alongCollapse )

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[18 Apr 2005|03:28pm]
Type of ED: Anorexia Nervosa
Height: 5'6
Weight: i gained! god dangt! so about 110-114 havent been able to check!
Dream Weight: 98-103...i dont want to end up in the hospital...parents watch me enough as it is

Do you...
Have a regular menstrual cycle? nope.
Ever have ED or food-related dreams? yes, usually abuot people telling me if i dont lose weight they'll kill me
Weigh yourself almost obsessively? Usuaslly. Right now Im on a pact of no-weighing.
Wear a red bracelet, etc. to remind yourself not to eat? yeah
Feel thin right now? No.
Feel fat right now? I feel tired/sad/mad/and fat
Idolize skinny celebrities? some of them
Have any (offline) eating disordered friends or family? not that i know of, i meanone of my friends thinks shes fat, but not to my extent, at all
Have you ever...
Fasted for 24 hours? yes.
Fasted for a week? yes.
Fasted for an even longer period of time? yes,....a few days more than a week
Told someone (offline) about your ED? yes.
Kept a food/exercise diary? yes.
Been asked if/accused that you were anorexic? yes, people used to ask me a lot.
Been asked if/accused that you were bulimic? once...by my boyfriend
Made yourself throw up? yes, only once, i dont have gag reflexes
Been jealous of a friend's body? serisouly, is that even worth asking, i've already been declared anorexic...come on
What's your favorite...
"Safe" food? jello, ice
"Just say no" food? bread
ED-related song? right now, it's " A Line Allows Progress, A Circle Does Not" by Bright Eyes
ED-related movie? i dont know if i know of any
ED-related book? She's Come Undone, by Wally Lamb.
Form of exersize? Running, dance, trampoline
Form of motivation? friends are all smaller than me, i dont want to wear a size 5*too big, but i need a lil bit baggy*
ED trick? fasting, its easy, and gets easier as you go along with it
Share a motivating or touching quote:"It's not that I want to be thin, it's that I have no choice BUT to be thin"

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[15 Apr 2005|04:15pm]
[ mood | blah ]

Hunger hurts but starving works<33


You’re looking skinny like a model with your eyes all painted black
You just keep going to the bathroom always say you’ll be right back

And your my obsession
I love you to the bones

Nothing tastes as good as thin feels

To be appreciated you better be tall and thin and if you aren't tall you better at least be able to keep your weight below 100 lbs


--->Everything I want to be I am, only buried under a layer of fat <---

Hunger is control, control,is beauty, beauty is bones

I am your  butter, I am your bread, the voice inside your head, I'll fill you up with lack of being fed

You want to see food, take a look in the mirror at your thighs

That greasy fry
It tells no lies
Its truth is written on your thigh

"Looking at herself but wishing she was someone else / Because the body of the doll it don't look like hers at all / So she straps it on, she sucks it in, she throws it up, and gives a grin / Laughing at herself because she knows she ain't that at all" what a good song


credit these all to


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[11 Apr 2005|04:04pm]
Your Inner Eating Disorder by pennyroyalclover
you want to be...
your eating disorder is...anorexia
your ideal weight is...98
you should...get off your computer and exercise you lazy bastard
Quiz created with MemeGen!

its destiny i swear, shes my thinspiration, and they TOO think she should be!

(4 kisseshug and kiss me)

[09 Apr 2005|01:03pm]
[ mood | anxious ]

Mary-Kate is my savior, she is helping me to get thin, she is the ultimate Thinspiration, i love her to death, she is the prettiest girl on the planet, and i wish i were in her place.


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